The last week has been tumultuous.
Cowboy broke his wrist as many of you know, in the first 15 minutes of his first game of Rugby - he has been training for since September and is in the best fitness he has ever been in and just like that.
Over.
He has been in a lot of agony, mostly at night - sleep has not visited our abode much in the last week or two and wouldn't you know it Monte has entered a clingy stage.
He wakes in the night and I can't get him back in the cot for love, nor money, nor toy cars.
So with him clung around my neck like a monkey and Cowboy in agony with a wrist he cannot get comfortable - I have started to resemble Darth Vader.
Routine is thrown out the window and I am out of whack.
Like a crazy lady my mind ticks over with blog posts and giveaways for my website while reality bites me and I wonder if being housebound in the OHT and discovering the internet have I in fact become a little insane and obsessive....
Don't answer that, or I will moderate you to the garbage bin :-)
I wish I could solve the broken wrist but I cannot.
I know Cowboy is frustrated with it and I don't know what to do.
My Dad laughed because the first thing I said when he broke it was "Great, now he won't be able to change nappies" and I was joking.
But now, not so sure haha...
Poor Cowboy...
I knew I didn't like that game of football for a reason.....
I had an emotional breakdown today... like a week ago I was managing it all, so it felt and now EVERYTHING is out of control
Keeping perspective here. It is not possible to juggle it all perfectly - and perhaps these things happened to remind me what is most important - my family.
I am waiting for my A-HA moment where I figure out what my role is here and how to keep it going on.
I know its coming, I know sometimes we hit little walls where we sometimes stagnate until we learn what needs to be learnt.
Think I was so off with the fairies excited about my website that I was neglecting my two men and now it is apparent they both need me.
pic from here
Meanwhile I haven't exercised nor eaten properly and feel ewwwww...
Oh I don't like doing ranty posts, but people, I needed to - hopefully I can get on with it now and be the person Cowboy and Monte need me to be.
I wish the real world would just stop hassling me.
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I miss you over here at your little blog? I love your website, too. Things will get better, it just sounds like you need a break. Maybe a bath or a walk or a float down the river by your lonesome...baths do it for me..and walks..You are a great mom and wife, so don't worry! The boys are lucky to have you!!
ReplyDeleteI miss you over here at your little blog. I like your website too! You are a great mom and wife, so don't worry the boys are lucky to have you!! Things will get better soon...maybe you just need some time to yourself to float down a river, take a walk, or go to a spa...change the scenery a bit. love what you do!
ReplyDeleteYou poor thing. Hopefully the venting helped. It's so hard to be all things to all people and still find time for yourself. Hope things improve soon. xx
ReplyDeleteFeeling for you hon, I have been pulled away from my real life and feeling a bit strung out by family stuff too. Sometime all you can do, is keep on keeping on. Don't worry about routine for the minute, just do what you need to to get by, and get back on track when life has returned to normal programming!
ReplyDeleteFeeling it too, the universe is a bit off kilter...time to adjust ourselvs ladies!
ReplyDeleteHi There. I hope that this post let it all out and you're good to go. Welcome to SITS. We're here for you.
ReplyDeleteHey Sharni! everyone needs a rant every once in a while and it sounds like you deserve it!
ReplyDeleteok, so first thing? have compassion for yourself - then you will feel better and more able to have compassion for those men in your life :)
~m.
Sometimes, you need a ranty post!
ReplyDeleteMy friend was once convinced her hubs had shoulder surgery to as not to change diapers... hmm... Nah, I am sure your Cowboy didn't do it for that reason!
Stopping from SITS- welcome!