The last week has been tumultuous.
Cowboy broke his wrist as many of you know, in the first 15 minutes of his first game of Rugby - he has been training for since September and is in the best fitness he has ever been in and just like that.
Over.
He has been in a lot of agony, mostly at night - sleep has not visited our abode much in the last week or two and wouldn't you know it Monte has entered a clingy stage.
He wakes in the night and I can't get him back in the cot for love, nor money, nor toy cars.
So with him clung around my neck like a monkey and Cowboy in agony with a wrist he cannot get comfortable - I have started to resemble Darth Vader.
Routine is thrown out the window and I am out of whack.
Like a crazy lady my mind ticks over with blog posts and giveaways for my website while reality bites me and I wonder if being housebound in the OHT and discovering the internet have I in fact become a little insane and obsessive....
Don't answer that, or I will moderate you to the garbage bin :-)
I wish I could solve the broken wrist but I cannot.
I know Cowboy is frustrated with it and I don't know what to do.
My Dad laughed because the first thing I said when he broke it was "Great, now he won't be able to change nappies" and I was joking.
But now, not so sure haha...
Poor Cowboy...
I knew I didn't like that game of football for a reason.....
I had an emotional breakdown today... like a week ago I was managing it all, so it felt and now EVERYTHING is out of control
Keeping perspective here. It is not possible to juggle it all perfectly - and perhaps these things happened to remind me what is most important - my family.
I am waiting for my A-HA moment where I figure out what my role is here and how to keep it going on.
I know its coming, I know sometimes we hit little walls where we sometimes stagnate until we learn what needs to be learnt.
Think I was so off with the fairies excited about my website that I was neglecting my two men and now it is apparent they both need me.
pic from here
Meanwhile I haven't exercised nor eaten properly and feel ewwwww...
Oh I don't like doing ranty posts, but people, I needed to - hopefully I can get on with it now and be the person Cowboy and Monte need me to be.
I wish the real world would just stop hassling me.
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